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Like a Dragonfly

>> 19 July 2011

Finally... the first of the metamorphosis pictures are up.


I do have to say, it is a bit upsetting to see myself as I was, and I am not even done loosing yet. Before the first pictures you will see, I knew it was definitely time for a change.

After going through the ups and downs of every diet and weight loss medication, not to mention bearing 4 children as a gestational diabetic, I was at a loss as to what to do, but I knew I had to do something about my weight. At that point, I had decided to have GB (even without the reality check of pictures) just to stave off full blown diabetes.

It is amazing even to me to see the transformation happening, but that is not and never was why I had the surgery.  Even if I never loose another pound, even if I never fit into a size 8, it is still one of the BEST decisions of my life.  Getting the sexy back is just icing on the proverbial cake!

PS.  They're on the right...just in case you can't find them.  Scroll about half way down and they are there.


Seriously! 


TinaMarie




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Two Months Out

>> 03 July 2011



Well, it was two months yesterday since my surgery and...

I have officially lost 44 lbs

No, seriously...44 lbs..  Yeah, I know, I can't believe it either!!!  Booyah!!!

I am surprisingly getting a lot more comments and questions about my weight loss.  I find it kind of odd, actually.  I am not sure why it is different from when I would get comments in the past when I would loose weight. I don't know...maybe it's just me.  Either way, it does feel good that people notice.

The one outstanding compliment of the month came yesterday from my PT, who noticed how much easier it was for me to do some of the exercises I was doing pre-surgery.  Go Me!!!  (...and thanks Nan!)

I am still working on getting the monthly pictures up.  I am taking them for documentation purposes, but I still cannot get the day-of-surgery ones off my old phone.  Talk about frustrating!

Anyways, a week by week play by play this month is pretty boring actually, but I will do it for my friends who are still considering Gastric Bypass.


Week 5

Activity was still moderate this week.  I kept trying to push myself a bit more, but I was also still so fearful of creating a hole/leakage in my new routing. Dizziness is still here and there, but no where near as bad.

I was still on soft foods (until after my "one month" appointment that came at the 6 week mark, only because of scheduling issues), which was getting REALLY boring!

Only bad - I found out, sadly, that chicken and I no longer agree.  It is a strange phenomenon, but it has been reported that after surgery, some patients can no longer tolerate chicken, some beef, some fish, some have issues with other proteins, and some lucky ducks have no issues at all.  I got the chicken card!  It was a weird experience.  It was not like the dumping syndrome that one reads about.  It was literally put the bite of chicken in my mouth and start gagging until I got it out.  I managed to swallow one piece, and a few minutes later, that had to evacuate too.  So ok, I can no longer eat chicken.  Kind of sucks, but I am extremely grateful it was not the beef card though!  Dude...life without ribs, a good juicy steak...just ain't worth living!


Week 6

One month post-op appointment went fabulously well.  I marked in at 36 lbs lost since surgery.  Had a great talk with my PA about switching up foods and the like.  The only issue I had was my incredible thirst.  His solution...drink more.  WELL DUH!  But then how do I get eating in, because in the GP Bible (that they give you pre-op), it warns about the dangers of drinking after a meal, and recommends not drinking until 30-60 minutes afterwards.  The PA says to me, "Drink, eat, wait, then drink".  Sometimes, his sarcasm compells me to want to strangle him.  Good thing I get his dry sense of humor.

The PA clears me to start weight lifting very slowly, and to increase my walking as I can.  And he warns me of strictures.  Strictures are when food gets "backed up" in your new system because it cannot be digested properly and causes a clog.  The only way a bad stricture comes out is endoscopically.  YEAH, not gonna try that one!!!

Only bad - still being so friggn' thirsty it ain't even funny.


Week 7

OH MY!  I am here to tell you that what is called The Dumping Syndrome should be avoided at ALL costs.  The definition of dumping syndrome, as defined by the Mayo Clinic, is as follows:


Dumping syndrome is a group of symptoms most likely to develop if you've had surgery to remove all or part of your stomach, or if your stomach has been surgically bypassed to help lose weight. Also called rapid gastric emptying, dumping syndrome occurs when the undigested contents of your stomach are transported or "dumped" into your small intestine too rapidly. Common symptoms include abdominal cramps and nausea.
Most people with dumping syndrome experience symptoms soon after eating. In others, symptoms may occur one to three hours after eating. In either case, symptoms can range from mild to severe.
Dumping syndrome often improves on its own without medical treatment or after adjusting your diet. In more-serious cases of dumping syndrome, you may need medication or surgery.

It was totally my fault, but one I was unaware of.  It was not like I decided to eat a piece of cake, knowing I'd have a reaction to that.  This was ribs with a light bbq sauce on them.  The bbq sauce only had >1g of sugar, so I thought it would be ok.  I can have some small amounts of regular sugar in foods and not have a reaction.  What I didn't calculate was that this was one gram for every teaspoon, and pure sugar at that.  It was like I threw myself into instant shock; cold sweats, chills, shakes, need to throw up, dizziness, need to throw up, chills, sweats...did I mention the need to throw up???  Once it did finally come up, it was instant relief, although I could tell my new stomach was not so happy with me.

Besides that experience, everything has continued to go smoothly.  The journey into normal foods has been very slow, but at least I am no longer on baby food or broth for that matter.  I do still find myself turning to soup and the protein shakes just to get the protein in because I still have no appetite.

Only bad- dumping.  WAY bad!


Week 8 

As I mentioned before, it's all trial and error.  Increased my exercise level, and though I hurt still, it has definitely been worth it.  Dizziness is still around.

I am still adventuring into the realm of what I can and cannot tolerate eating.  The smell of chicken even makes me nauseous, but thankfully, I can enjoy tomatoes with no issue (some patients find the acid too harsh for their new stomachs).  I am still turning to soup and protein shakes for when I have to eat and/or to get my protein in.

Only bad - chicken!  Ick!  (...and oh, how I used to love it!!!)


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So there is month two.  Not too bad, right?!?  Hey, I'm pleased...44 lbs down, how can I not be?

If you have any questions or comments for me that you would like to be confidential, please use the email button to your right, and I will get back to you as soon as I can.  Otherwise, please leave your love in the comments box below.

Thank you, once again, for all the love and support y'all have shown and sent my way.  Y'all are making this very east and comfortable for me, and I cannot thank you enough.  I do have the greatest friends and family in the world...and a lot of them!!!



Seriously!

TinaMarie

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Big Girls Don't Wear Sports Bras

>> 10 June 2011

The Sports Bra... a big girl's worst nightmare!!!  I never thought I would don a sports bra again, but I came to a crossroads the other day...a dilemma I was truly torn over.

Over the years, I have gone through many a bra size, bra type, bra shape, bra style,... you name it!  I have worn them all.  Sometimes uncomfortably, but I have worn them.  The one bra I gave up on when I started having children was the sports bra.  I mean, really...even though they are comfortable, it is the most impractical bra when trying to nurse a youngin', not to mention coverage.  I am sorry, but the sports bra just DOES NOT cover a big girl properly.

Yet, here I am, loosing weight and NOT wanting to spend a fortune for every bra size I go down to.  Seriously... who wants to buy a bra in a different size every stinkin' month?  Do you KNOW how expensive a good bra is?

So I decided I was NOT going to buy several bras during this journey.  To me, that would be a waste of money (that I could be spending on my children or at the MAC counter) and a waste of resources.  But then, as I started loosing the weight, I was no longer fitting into my bras larger bras.  A GREAT thing...if they were to shrink with me.  And to add to the dilemma, I was not yet fitting into my smaller sizes, so what was I to do?

Of course, the first suggestion I got was, How about a sports bra?  I am sorry...are you kidding me???  Big girls don't wear sports bras!!!  That's some good stuff you must be smokin'!

Yet, the more days that uncomfortably passed in the wrong bra, the more I actually started to consider this nemesis of mine.  What if I found the right sports bra to carry me through a couple of bra sizes until I could comfortably wear the smaller sizes without spilling over the top or the sides?  Nah...it ain't possible, I thought.  They don't make sports bras for girls my size.

HA!  Foiled again!!!  All I gotta say is HANES...(Oh, how I love that company!).  Not only did I find a bra that fits now and will shrink with me, the designers definitely had the bigger girls in mind when cutting the fabric.  I have never had a sports bra that gave a big girl so much coverage; it's amazing. I should buy stock!

All I gotta say is Hanes... I LOVE YOU!!!


Seriously! TinaMarie

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I Just Can't Help Myself...E Mio

>> 03 June 2011

Have you tried this new product.  

OH HAVE MERCY, this is a dieter-water hater-sugar avoider-food allergy sufferer's dream!!!


Mio is AMAZING!

And you only need a little...and I mean a little, so it goes a very long way, which makes this a totally affordable product.

Do I sound like a commercial?  Hey Kraft...if you need a spokeswoman... I got'chore back!


Seriously!

NO...SERIOUSLY!!!

TinaMarie

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One Month Out

>> 02 June 2011


Today marks one month after my surgery.  Wow, can you believe it?  I hardly can.  It seems like yesterday.  Clichè, I know, but it does.  It's crazy!  The only things left to remind me, other than the lack of appetite (which I will get back to) are the 5 cute little scars on my abdomen, and of course,...

being 25 lbs slimmer!!!  Booyah!!!

I would LOVE to add pics every month for those of you reading and not seeing me everyday, but I STILL have not received my replacement phone to take them with, and my "day of surgery" pics are being held hostage by my deader that dead Blackberry, which by the way, died the week of surgery.  Prophetic???  I'll leave that to a different judge.  OH, and not to mention I have yet to replace my very expensive 5yr. old Kodak SLR camera that refuses to function anymore.  So WHEN I am able to show you my journey to getting my sexy back, I will...but it may take a while.

So anyhow, I have been asked to share with you some of the grueling facts of going through with Gastric Bypass by some of my friends who are considering it, so I shall.  Let's go week by week, shall we?


Surgery
Honestly, it was easy.  For as excited and nervous as I was, for all the horror stories I had heard, for the chances of something going wrong, for everything prior... it went super well and recovery has been really easy.

Advice - make sure you have your arm numbed before an IV placement, and have them place it on your inner wrist.  NO PAIN during or afterwards, and I didn't blow the IV.

I was told my surgery took 30 mins.(average is 45 mins to an hour) longer because I had a fatty liver, which was tested for Hepatitis, and came back negative.  GO me!  I do NOT remember being intubated or extubated, which I am soooo thankful for!!!  Just a dry throat was the result.  The hospital stay was great (subject to your hospital and nurses).  I was up and walking the afternoon of my sugery.  I did notice the amount of liquids they brought every time it was meal time, and I remember thinking to myself... This is so not gonna fill me up.  WRONG!!!  I could only get down a half a cup of broth and MAYBE some tea and that was it.  And the drugs... so thankful for the drugs and the PCA (Patient-Controlled Analgesic).  Oh my...

Only warning here: since I am allergic to morphine, I was given Dilaudid and Oxycodone (Oxicontin).  The "detox" after just a couple of days on Oxycodone is HORRIBLE!  The headache was immense and just the overall "ick" feeling was not good.  I can see why people get hooked on it for pain relief, because I felt NOTHING, but what a detox.  So be careful, friends!


Week 1
Ah, liquid Vicodin...let me count the ways that I love thee...  Amazing stuff, that is!  It helped wisk away the pain of the 1st week, and I only had to refill it once.

This week was nap week.  I slept a lot.  I also had NO appetite.  I had a regiment (and still do) of when to eat, drink my protein shakes, and when to exercise, and when I wasn't doing those, I was napping.

At my one week check up, I was down 14.2lbs, which I know was mostly water... but it was still a good loss!!!  I was (and still am) dizzy all the time, but Doc said that was normal and will be until I stabilize at a maintainable weight.

Only bad - a week of broth.  NOT exciting at all!


Week 2
The 2 hour post-op class was LONG, but very informative.  I think they would be better off giving this information during the 1st week or pre-surgery.

I was up and about at this time, not quiet yet back to my normal activity level, but the "need to nap" phase wore off with the end of taking the Vicodin.  Still dizzy though!

I still didn't have an appetite, and I am still on a daily eating schedule.

Only bad - a week of baby food.  Yeah... not sure which is worse.


Week 3
What can I tell ya... I felt GREAT, and my weight loss started to show thanks to the compliments of family and friends.  Although I will tell ya, if you're a well-endowed gal such as myself, say goodbye to the girls because they are the 1st to go!!!  It think at this point, I was at 17-20lbs lost.

I was back to taking the girls to school and taking them and their brother to and from their afternoon activities.  I was even out shopping on my own with the baby!  *delicate hand covering O-mouth*

Only bad - still dizzy


Week 4
As I said above, I am down 25lbs and feeling great.  I still do not have an appetite and I am still on a daily eating schedule.  If I didn't do that, I would not eat.  I am thirsty ALL the time, though.  ALL the time, which makes it hard to fit in eating because one post-op cannot drink during or for 30-60 mins. after eating, which SUCKS for me.

I have returned back to most everything.  I still can only get one walk to and from school in a day.  I tried to do it both in the morning and in the afternoon, and that was a big mistake.  I had to be picked up because I was just worn out.

I am not supposed to be picking up anything over 15lbs for 6 weeks post-op, but with a 17 mth. old...that is NOT possible, even though she is petite.  Not sooo dizzy, or not letting it phase me as much, but it is still there.

Only bad - the smell of food.  The worst thing for me, post surgery, has been the smells of food and people eating in front of me.  I have my meals separate still.  I love food, and I know now that besides emotional eating, I would eat when I was tempted by smell or people.  Hopefully soon, I will rejoin the real world, only with smaller, healthier choices.


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So there you have it.  That has been my 1st month post-op.  If you have any questions or comments for me that you would like to be confidential, please use the email button to your right, and I will get back to you as soon as I can.  I know,... there is a huge stigma with this surgery... but believe you me, it is SO worth it.  Otherwise, please leave your love in the comments box below.

Thanks for all the love and support y'all have shown and sent my way.  Y'all are making this very easy and comfortable!  I have the greatest friends/family in the world!


Seriously!

TinaMarie

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Here Goes Nothing

>> 01 May 2011

Alrighty!  The countdown has begun.

I drank the magnesium of citrate...not as bad of a "clean out" as I thought it would be.  I guess I didn't tick off Montezuma as much as I thought I had.  Now, after showering, I get to use these new Prep Check preoperative skin preparation cloths.  They come with explicit instructions and a sticker that I have to affix to a piece of paper, along with the sticker that I will affix in the morning, that I will hand the nurse in the morning.  Oh joy!  They were explained to us in our pre-op class that our skin will feel sticky after use, and that is a good thing.  Really?  Ok.

Tomorrow morning, I go in for my Gastric Bypass surgery around 9:30a.  I ask that you please shine your light in  my direction tomorrow as I embark on this new journey.  I am EXCITED!!!

Seriously!

 TinaMarie


PS.  I would be remiss if I didn't say anything about the joyous news America has received tonight, but I do not want to give more energy to the evil that was, so I will leave you with this statement from our Former President George W. Bush:

"The fight against terror goes on, but tonight America has sent an unmistakable message: No matter how long it takes, justice will be done." 

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